why those feelings from you come so late after so many things?

today...is the day that i explain everthing...using this blog...i hope that my friends...will get what i mean....

Why would love be so blind as The God had gave us two eyes??? This time...i really had hurt her badly...starting that time...i was quite confuse on why that she is sad...but after some time...i get what her means...i admit that i have a new relationship now...because...we did lost contact for some time...and this year is the most important year for all of us...so i decide not to disturb and distract you from study hard to strive for the excellence...That time...is really a hard time for me...because...u let me feel that i m just an ordinary friends...and u know that i would like to go futher with u...And that time...we just like disappear from each other mind...we din find each other...not even a message...i thought that u had already forget me...i was angry that time....and my mind told me that i love u but u dont....

Maybe love has its own temptation...whenever i see any couples walking across me...my heart suddenly broke...so...that is the time when i looking for love...can consider as desperation for love also...And the new relationship in me just form like that....

After a few months...i heard something about u...finally...but what i heard was not really a good news....i heard that u was on the verge of tears....and your hear is overwhelmed by a deep sense of sadness...i dont know why and what happened...i ask every friends that still have contact with you...and finally i know the answer...but that time...everything is just too late...i am sorry...

All i want to say now...I"m sorry for loving you...It"s not me but my heart who loves you trully and can never let you go...but what i say now...is too late for me as i know that...Blindness of people makes them fall into the wrong love trap as they can only see love...i am not that good as you thought i was...Never fall into love that does not worth your love at all...Loving someone who does not acknowledge it is a waste of effort and time...Never force a relationship as love is natural...We need some space for ourselves as our love is getting shallower...It"s neither a long boring distance relationship or a hopeless goose chase...NONE is good....

i know that sorry cant replace the loss of your tears and blood...But i really hope that the time will flush everything when next time i meet u...but i think probally next year...when you had totally forgotten me...and have a new relationship...

Judging people you love should never be done as you do not judge yourself for loving her...is my fault...everthing is my fault...i should not do stupid thing at the starting point...but i had no regret on loving you...just regret on loosing you and made you cry...A choice between two girls is neither good as you yourself are confused nor bad as two girls are good for you...

Dear...Be strong and dont cry over such stuff as it is now worth your tears to be shed...Love is really sweet and bitter...i din hope that u will forgive me...but please please please dont ever hurt yourself...kayy...i think thats what i could tell u...the 3 words...i will just keep in my heart forever and ever...Have a healthy and happy life...

goodbye